Its all beneficial

2 MOST BENEFICIAL PRACTICES FOR ME.

 

  When I read about Loving Kindness I was captivated.  In the past, I always flew off the handle at any sign of change or anything really that didn’t appeal to me.  My mind had never been calm at any time in the last 20 years before I started this class.  I have people coming up to me at work and telling me that I am a different person than I was before. (Before being in the summer of 2013).  There wasn’t any balance or harmony in my life, I was a giant ball of stress.  After doing some reading on loving kindness, which is like a savior to me,  I have found a way to start loving myself again, finding happiness from within, allowing others to be who they are without me judging them.  I was a Jerk in every sense of the word.  Your opinion didn’t matter to me because usually you were wrong anyway.  Now I know I’m secure with myself and pushing people away to cope isn’t the best way.  Compassion and caring are the way I live my life today, people still say I’m too nice but its fine.  After you learn to accept yourself for who you are all the pieces come together and the puzzle starts to make sense. 

Meditation.

I think meditation will be really beneficial to me when I find the time to start doing it.  I need to find a peaceful spot within myself to heal spiritually, to release the stress of the day and rejuvenate myself for the rest of the night. Hopefully it will help me sleep since I haven’t had a good night’s sleep without taking a pill in the last 15 years.  There has to be a happy medium somewhere and I don’t mean the ones that see dead people.

  When I can use these two practices together I will experience a wholeness that I have never had before.  It will be a rebirth of sorts for me.  To be able to love and be loved, to care about and be cared for, and most of all to love myself.